i wonder why people get mad and disappointed with me...

and i shouldn't. it's pure karma. or the golden rule. whatever you may call it. i don't treat others how i want to be treated. i constantly treat others like shit. and then i sit there and wonder why they treat me like shit, but it's just being returned.

i should learn to actually open up when i'm depressed. i shouldn't shut down the person who asks me what's wrong. but, i feel like i'm bothering them if i do actually tell them what the matter is. i should just stop that, and actually tell them what's wrong. i shouldn't put up a front. i need to be completely, one hundred percent honest. and, i need to stop treating people badly. i constantly bad mouth others and i get a bad reputation because of it.

i know none of you will really care,

but i really am sorry if i've been a complete dick to you. you probably think i'm just kidding, but i really am completely sorry. it's too late for apologies, but i don't care. i'm still going to at least try.

i need to start being a better person.

now.

yeasayer - "i remember"

you're stuck in my mind,


all the time.

the xx comes to bloomington on april 6th.

real estate and woods come on march 23rd.

very stoked.